“Life didn’t promise to be wonderful.” ~Teddy Pendergrass

I have melted into my bed
My sadness has taken control
My soul feels exposed
My insides feel shattered
My energy is non-existent
I am a shell
Shattered and broken
My goals seem a million miles away and utterly insurmountable
Betrayal has robbed me of my light
Indiscretion has crushed my spirit
My drive is gone
My motivation is a long lost friend
Friends try to convince me to eat, to get up, to move….
I can’t.
All I can muster is tears and anger
So many questions
So much confusion
I don’t understand but I also know what has been placed before me is not understandable
I do not remember what it was like to feel whole
I do not know how to move forward
I do not know how to put the pieces back together
I do not know how to find my inner Wonder Woman
I dug deep for marathon training and yet now, no matter how deep I dig, I can’t find a thing
I don’t know what to do or how to do it or how to get myself upright again
I don’t know if I can or if I will
I can only hope that if I do, it will be in time…

10 thoughts on “Shattered

    1. Unfortunately this is about more than just doubt. The universe dealt me a hand that knocked the wind out of my sails. I’m doing my best to get back up… I missed a long run day and a normal run day so far. 😦


      1. The universe can truly be the devil sometimes, usually when you least expect it. It likes to sneak up on you. Sneaky bitch. My friend dragged me out of my bed and on to my bike today which helped immensely. There’s no place like home.


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